My job search began the day I came home. I hadn't searched for a job since 1996. This was going to be a challenge. It has been a difficult time for our family and for me as I am forced to rethink my future and career and ministry choices. It has sometimes been a time of emotional deflation and at other times optimism to see what new things are next.
Here are a few things I have learned along the way:
- I'm not the only person who has ever lost a job.
- We are blessed with unbelievable friends who have done way more for us than they had to.
- I will never forget even the littlest things that our friends have done for us.
- I will forever relate differently to friends who go through this. I did not understand what a challenge this is when my friends went through this in the past.
- Being let go from a church in the way we were means that you not only lose your job, you lose confidence in the leadership of your church, and therefore, you lose your church.
- Losing your job from a church challenges your assumptions that you are supposed to continue in church music indefinitely.
- It is a huge challenge to write a resume, when you haven't thought of one in nearly 15 years.
- It's an even bigger challenge to write dozens of resumes, almost a new one everyday, focused in a million and one different directions.
- Nobody is in the hurry to hire me that I am to start working.
- Three months of severance may seem like plenty of time, but it goes by so fast.
- Health insurance for the family is not inexpensive.
- I'm used to working hard and seeing the results of my work. I have never worked harder than I have to find a job but I have nothing to show for it.
- It's crazy to think about all the things I would be willing to do, even though I might not like most of them. Once I hear of one or two things that I REALLY want, though, I can't stop thinking about them.
- From my experience, anybody who hires me will wondering what they ever did without me.
- To quote a good friend: It is not up to me to provide for my family; it is ultimately the Lord's promise. I am straining to put my trust in him.